Final day..

I guess it's probably better to write my feelings right now before I forgot..
I never realize it had been a very wonderful 2 and a half years in Germany. It had been a blessing in disguise for me to release myself from glaring responsibilities at home and take a fresh new challenge here. It was difficult at first, having to let my little girl stay with her grandmother for half a year. Thinking of how I would be the one responsible if anything bad happen to her, I suppressed my sadness and half-heartedly came to Germany. We got to learn so many things, academically and socially and I realize there are so many things that we lack in Malaysia. We think that we are kind to each other, but here in Germany (a country that has always been associated with their coldness) their kindness shows. There are a lot of times I felt ashamed of how different our definition of kindness is. Whenever I need to load Ainaa's stroller into the bus, there will always be someone who offers to help even when I didn"t need it. There was this one grandma that offers to show me the direction of the new post office just because she thought I would not understand her giving directions. I don't think I would even meet people like that anymore these days.
And that would make me miss this country even more. Sometimes, I wonder in the country where Islam prevails like Malaysia, we argue the safety of our own house. I never realize how wonderful living here in Germany without that fear of running into someone that could harm you. Houses with no pre-install grill, walking at night without anybody whistling at you, riding a strictly scheduled public transportations  and we are talking of unIslamic country here. But the most important thing that I would miss is how well Ainaa is treated in the Kindergarten. Her teachers loved her so much, they cried a river when we took Ainaa home in her last day. Their kindness I would never be able to repay, I just hope that someday they will find their true happiness of their own.
Now, challenges I have to face at home will be mounting and suddenly I feel sad leaving here. Life would definitely be different after this!