In the middle of the night

poetic mode ON
addicted..
and shamelessly acknowledging it..
why is it my fault that my life turns upside down
why should i go through this phase again at my age..
why couldn't i blame it on someone else
because i thought it's easier
than suffering silently inside
it's ridiculous..
ridiculously mad
and temptation is remarkable
really hope that day will come
when everything dies out
and my feeling becomes mine again..
poetic mode OFF
P/S: can I call this poetic?? hahahaha