i wish

life would be easier..
the world revolves only around me..
people would be all the time understanding..
my heart will stop being nervous..
anticipating..
dreaming..
of something that would never be mine
i wish..
i just wake up and leave all this behind..
who knows i might forget it all..
it' sad already that everything crumbles
should i add it up with accepting defeat?
i'm not this kind of person
i will get what i want..
if i struggle enough..
if i accept advices and concerns..
but i guess only time will tell
whether i am good enough or not..
arghhh.. i wish time flies with no end..