Hidup bukan hidup kalau tak diduga kan? Haha, bermadah plak aku nih. Well, from 29th Feb until 20th March, exams are flowing in Siegen. Sume org sibuk.. hehe, almaklumlah first time exam kat Jerman nih.. Besok sebenarnya ader paper, tp nape ntah aku rasa blurrrr sgt.. 1st paper actually dh lepas.. and it was so bad, tears kept coming when I think of it.. Bukan tak tau pasal subjek tu, in fact I had try my best, and I almost know everything... almost...
But the fact is, the lecturers didn't expect you to know 'almost' everything.. they want you to know EVERYTHING.. and that's why I felt so inadequate right now.. I felt though as if, even if I study very hard I won't come to their expectation.. And tomorrow is Advanced Control I paper.. and the thing is, I try so very hard to know every single thing and the meaning of 'in between' terms.. but the thoughts of ineadequacy kept coming.. and it's killing me..
And the truth is, these exams give me goosebumps a lot more than the first time I delivered my baby girl.. yes.. that kind of worst..
I always thought that I can do everything,as long as I tried hard enough; but the thing is there is always something I can't do.. and I'm afraid I am too proud to accept the fact that I can't do it..
Ya Allah, please give me strength to go on..
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Insyallah Dd dah usaha pasti Allah balas setimpal dgn usaha Dd...
aku lagila dah siap simpan notes Teichmann untuk sem depan..naluri hatiku berkata..pasti~
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