Guilty

There are lots of things that I felt guilty right now.. I wish I can turn back time to correct them all. I promise to myself, I will work harder from now on. I will not disappoint anybody from now on. Especially my husband. He has gone through enough miserable things and yet he still didn't complaint. I guess my mother's prayers always has been answered in one way or another. She once told me that she always prays that (even after I got married) that I will have husband that gives me happiness to the end of my life until Jannah. She prays that hardships can still pass through me even though how hard it is, and I will be able to manage them. I think I am so blessed to be surrounded by so many people with beautiful heart, and yet even though in one way or another I did disappoint them; they never show much contemplation to my bad actions and focuses to good things.. I guess I will never get the meaning of life without the help of generous and kind hearted people around me, and even though this guilt is really killing me, I will do my best from now on..

Celine Dion - Because You Loved Me(1)